Sick and tired

Been sick since last Tuesday, second visit to doc today. It's easy to say get more rest to get well but I can only say I can only to get as much rest as possible. I have a lot of things on my late, I mean really a lot of things. In work, I am a boss to colleagues, I am subordinate to the other 3 bosses directly on top of me with targets and deadlines. In life, my dad's illness had taken a toll on my whole family. The impact had caused us much pain in mentally, physically. It was most obvious for my mum as she had lost a lot of weight ever since. Till now, I still question. "why us?" Been very very very stress and very sensitive and abrasive lately. On one hand, I wished he would passed on without much pain and suffering that he is going. On the other hand, I wished that we can see him more daily. Haiz.

Tired but still holding on

Tired is the main thing i feel lately.

Tired of work.
Tired of getting things done for the sake of getting it done.
Tired of shopping.
Tired of going to course.

Just tired.

Ordered a new washing machine.
Waited to come today.
On course yesterday as well, then to KK Hosp to visit a boy, then meeting till 11.30pm
Went for course in the early morning, before that woke up at 6am to check email.

Then finish course, go hosp to drive parents home.
Buy dinner, eat dinner, wait for washing machine.

Clean dishes, mop floor, clean plastic mats in toilet before showering.