Time Bomb

Life has been more stressful for me... I get irritated easily, at the slighest and smallest actions... SO much more that i thought of ending my life, but to think of me, that would create more problems for my family. I wished to think that if i can, if i could, i could give up my life to let my dad live. But then, this is not possible. Life really goes on. Dad's been diagnosed by Doc that he would have 6 mths left to live. The Dr didn't tell specifically how long he has left, but she did ask my dad if there are any unfufilled wishes and my dad's answer was just 顺其自然 or loosely translated as go with the flow. Asked my dad if he wanted to go for a staycation in local hotel (raffles city fairmont) in the high floors, he accepted the idea. Next is to think when would be the best time for him...