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After seeing my friend's postings, i decided to start blogging again.
Life had been like a roller coaster ride to me.
Since young, i would always say that my family is not well to do, with a lot of "wants" in life when i was young but mostly unfufilled as my dad was the only sole breadwinner.

Whenever my cousins who came over to visit my grandma (who stayed with us last time), they would bring so many food and stuff, ranging from slurpee, softee from 7 eleven, burgers from burger king, mac and all those handheld nitendo games.

I used to feel the inferiority and unfairness of life, how come they have these and that and i don't. I always felt that it's unfair, but i never understand that he was always trying the best he can for us.

As i grow older, me and my sis completed polytechnic studies and eventually university.
Eventually we headed to the working society, in our 1st 4 years of working life, we got our parents to overseas trip from HK to TW to Batam to even KL. They finally got the chance to enjoy the fruits of their hard labour and then the news struck on Oct 10th 2011.

He was diagnosed with pancreatic tumor at the head. This came as a shock as he had complained of gastric before but he just popped pills and that was fine. This time, doctor found jaundice on his body and in the eyes and that was the reason he was admitted to hospital for a check.

We were saddened by this news, the routine of admitting to A&E due to fever starts. Till now, we had admitted him to A&E 7 times and he spent most of the time in hospital.
Things took a turn for the worst when he completed one round of chemotheraphy and radiography as he went in during fever and he was checked to have the cells spread to liver and diagnosed as stage 4 now. Doctor had given us the expected period he would be around.

As i am writing this, he was admitted to hospital with zoster, a viral infection similar to chicken pox. Happens when he/she had low immune system.

Whats next is still unknown, but i will definitely need to be strong, to hold the fort. I will try to go for a second opinion to see if there are ways to prolong his life. I will try to be stronger than my sis and mum.