Sick and tired

Been sick since last Tuesday, second visit to doc today. It's easy to say get more rest to get well but I can only say I can only to get as much rest as possible. I have a lot of things on my late, I mean really a lot of things. In work, I am a boss to colleagues, I am subordinate to the other 3 bosses directly on top of me with targets and deadlines. In life, my dad's illness had taken a toll on my whole family. The impact had caused us much pain in mentally, physically. It was most obvious for my mum as she had lost a lot of weight ever since. Till now, I still question. "why us?" Been very very very stress and very sensitive and abrasive lately. On one hand, I wished he would passed on without much pain and suffering that he is going. On the other hand, I wished that we can see him more daily. Haiz.